I have some extremely shocking news. I am moving back to Toronto. Alone. My heart is broken. Life just asked too much of us. When you read this it will be my birthday and I will be in Toronto.
Update: Thank you all so much for your generous donations! You raised enough money with your birthday gift contributions to get me home!!! I will write more later but you have honestly just saved me. Saved me in so many ways. I would be lost without your help.
This would be the most generous gift you can give me for my birthday. I promise to keep food blogging and sharing my stories with you, just from a different kitchen and city. There is still so much more to explore together.
Oh Vancouver. You vegan gluten-free beautiful city. How I wanted to make this and so many other things work. I tried but I never quite fit in. I loved your mildness. My tulips are already coming up in the garden. I am finally off pain medication because BC is a province that does not hurt me. Still, you crushed me.
I am terrified of my future. I lived in Toronto 19 years feeling like a total outcast and spent 23 years trying not to go back. That said, the city has changed a lot since I grew up there. When I took care of my mom the last few months of her life I could see that it had become a warmer city than when I lived there. Still intense and crazy but I witnessed people looking out for each other and being kind.
Toronto, we have never gotten along but I ask that you be kind to me. I am more than a little broken all over. I do not know if my heart will ever fully heal but I will once again turn to the kitchen to find inspiration, stories and learn all that I can. Thank god for food. How many times have you saved my life? I have lost count.
I am coming for you Toronto. Are you ready?