We are making our way towards New Year tonight as I type this. I know this time of year brings a lot of joy to many people but for me, it is so very hard. I am struggling to find inspiration and energy. I know they will come, eventually, but please be patient with me. When you live with depression and fibromyalgia, the constant pain, injuries and exhaustion can take their toll. The kitchen is the one space I can usually find enough energy to be creative and share with you but right now, with winter crushing me, it is next to impossible.
I knew I had to take some time off when my mother-in-law called while I was baking cinnamon buns on Christmas Eve and the smoke detector went off. I turned to look through the window of my oven to see a small fire burning on the bottom of my oven. The sugar and butter had spilled on to the oven liner, somehow catching fire. I dropped the phone after telling Lorraine there was a fire, got out my baking soda, pulled out the oven liner and dumped the baking soda on top.
A foodie vacation is important for everyone, especially when it comes to safety. Hopefully soon I will start having enough energy to come back and share more stories. It is hard for me to make food when I am so sad, in so much pain and so very, very homesick.
I wish with all my heart that 2011 is a healthy, happy and successful year for me, for you, for everyone. I do know that I want to dive into the world of more comfort foods and make soup, stews, slow-cooked deliciousness in January. I certainly have no desire to go anywhere, might as well spend my days with bubbling pots on the stovetop and baking bread. Just, hold the fires please.